• Memorial Days

    4 June 2025

    Memorial Day at Gnawwood, 26 May 2025

    On this year’s designated Memorial Day, I rode my bike for the first time in I’m sure at least a year, enjoyed myself, and celebrated the fact that I did not fall off.  The next day, I spoke with my former acting teacher, Pete, just after his 80th birthday, and he thanked me for sending him my Shakespeare book (and for acknowledging his contributions to same; he praised his copy as looking really good—even if you didn’t read it!).  That night at the Portsmouth Library’s monthly Shakespeare discussion, I think I managed to contribute some worthwhile ideas and met three young former students of my UNH colleague Doug; all of them seemed pleased to meet me, and that felt good, too.  Such small triumphs I balance against life’s absurdities:  the Madbury tax assessor’s definition of a bathroom:  2 fixtures = a half bath; 3 fixtures = a bathroom.  When I countered that one could not take a bath in our toilet room, which has a toilet, a bidet, and a sink, he countered with “What’s a bidet?”  A bedroom, it turns out, only counts as a bedroom if it has a closet.  Oy.

    Basic communication seems increasingly problematic.  I’m still trying to make sense of an email exchange I had with a local venue about an upcoming production in which (I think?) word choice led to an off-putting misunderstanding.  And I’m not even counting the expense of time and frustration wasted when bots, phone answering systems, and online queuing land one in some infernal circle of futility. Thank goodness for the moderating influence of Nature going about her business unperturbed.

    Springtime’s wild geranium
    Visiting doe seen from the deck
    Chipmunk with aspiring mind

    But then things took a turn for the worse: this dentist’s daughter was felled by an infected crack in her second molar, and the pain med prescribed to tide me over before the antibiotic kicked in left me alternately sleeping and throwing up for the next 24 hours.  Sleep and fasting proved the only refuge from nausea until my poor body metabolized and voided the poison intended to help it.  The upside:  I lost three pounds overnight.  The downside:  I felt even less up to facing this year’s sad anniversary of my final day with my beloved husband.  On 1 June 2019, he departed our home for the last time, eighteen years from the Memorial Day weekend when we first moved into our just-built house.  A year later, 1 June 2020 marked my retirement from 43 years of teaching, an end requiring a new beginning of a different sort.  And this year, 1 June marks my late sister Jane’s son’s 27th birthday.  So much to feel in these Memorial Days.

    Being really sick, even for only a day, may have an ironically salutary upside, putting minor annoyances in perspective, however much they continue.  As I struggled to clamber up the Slough of Despond’s slippery slope, I tried diverting myself with all the best tv and film I could find:  the 2022 series Julia with its superb scripts and performances narrating the indomitable Ms. Child’s beginnings at WGBH; ALL of Mike Birbiglia’s comedy specials on Netflix; Naomi Watts, Bill Murray, and the uncannily talented Great Dane Bing in The Friend, a serious comedy about grief and what we owe each other; and the delightful if lightweight French rom com Jane Austen Wrecked My Life.

    Bill Murray and Naomi Watts in The Friend

    Happily, better help was at hand.  I had a wise and compassionate letter from my dear Americanist friend Trish, offering Ben Franklin’s allegory of the “speckled Ax,” advice about carrying on despite difficulty “obtaining good, & breaking bad Habits”—like my inertia when facing the task of a thorough, liberating weeding of possessions I don’t need or want.  “A speckled Ax is best” I understand to be Franklin’s and my friend’s version of “don’t let the perfect be the enemy of the good enough.”  Sound advice.  Even more helpful:  having the kind of friend who knows when and what kind of canny advice to offer a friend in need.

    Things ARE looking up.  My husband’s older brother Reed, like David, is a gifted writer and a perceptive, loving soul.  His consoling response to my sad letter was tonic in perceiving and acknowledging the magnitude of all I lost when David died—which ultimately, strangely celebrates what I have still, and can never lose.  Like the song says, “They can’t take that away from me.”  Good to have such a big brother.

    A visit to the endodontist helped, too—and not just because she’s a good doctor (like said big brother).  I’d not seen her for six years, when last the crack in that molar proved problematic.  And yet she recalled the trip to India I took in December of 2019, my first Christmas without David.  I suspect she keeps notes on her patients: atop her technical expertise and no-nonsense communication, Dr. Forbes is a most welcome reminder of the so important human connection in our so often inhumane era.

    On the loss of such ties that bind, I was recently struck by self-described mild-mannered David Brooks’s recent NYT op ed about what has pushed him over the edge:  Notre Dame political scientist Patrick Daneen’s Memorial Day essay in which he avers that regular soldiers fight not for ideas, abstractions, or ideals like natural rights, but instead fight only for their comrades in arms.  Brooks points out that J. D. Vance concurs, quoting Vance’s acceptance speech at the Republican National Convention:  “People will not fight for abstractions, but they will fight for their home.”  Brooks sees such statements pointing to “the moral rot at the core of Trumpism, which every day disgraces our country, which we are proud of and love.”

    I’m reminded of the one time my sweet dad, also a mild-mannered guy, confronted my then (unsuitable, though I hadn’t yet figured that out) boyfriend over the fact that he had hung his UNC-Chapel Hill diploma over the toilet.  My dad had volunteered to fight in WWII, and though his bad heart kept him out of the Army then, he was later drafted as a medical officer when I was a toddler, and for two years proudly served his country as a Captain.  A student of the Civil War and ardent admirer of “Mr. Lincoln,” my dad certainly believed in abstractions like the inherent value of education.  He just as certainly believed in dedication to the self-evident truths that established these United States.  Alas that they are no longer self evident.

    Last Sunday, I was moved to witness dedication of another sort, the dedication of artists who’ve devoted their lives to making their audience understand, collectively and powerfully, what it is to be human.  Boston Ballet’s production of Jean-Christophe Maillot’s Roméo et Juliette, staged by Noelani Pantastico, Bruno Roque, and Taisha Barton-Rowledge and danced to Prokofiev’s soaring score under conductor Mischa Santora’s direction, is heartbreakingly gorgeous, the narrative and scenic design pared down to make even more devastating that tale’s essential tragedy:  humanity’s capacity for senseless hatred destroying its future in the form of two charming, brave, exquisitely beautiful young lovers.  Maillot’s ballet tells Shakespeare’s story from Friar Laurence’s perspective, a cleric clearly tormented by Verona’s division, desperately seizing what he thinks may be a solution, and despairing when destiny intervenes.  By some strange alchemy, the collective dedication and talent of all those artists—dancers, choreographers, designers, musicians—transformed tragedy into beauty and solace—even on the sixth anniversary of my beloved husband’s departure.  Perhaps Keats’s Grecian urn is right:  beauty is truth, truth beauty.  The ballet’s truth seems to have set me free.

    Sangmin Lee and Seo Hye Han break hearts . . .
    . . . at Boston’s Opera House: architecture celebrating abstraction

    https://www.bostonballet.org/stories/romeo-et-juliette-preview/

    And now, the glorious azaleas have gone by, the rhododendrons and irises and beach roses commence their season.  And me, I take up my speckled Ax, and get back to work. And back on the bike.

    My Univega Metroprix: rolling since 1984

  • Folly Beach

    4-9 May 2025

    Folly Beach access

    With a name referencing the 17th-century meaning of “folly” (densely packed with trees and undergrowth), Folly Island’s first official mention is a land grant document from King William III to one William Rivers, dated 9 September 1696.  The island was home to members of the Bohicket tribe until the increasing number of Europeans in Charleston forced them to move elsewhere.  The City of Folly Beach is now home to 2400 residents and many visitors to this laid-back beach community, once among them George Gershwin, who composed Porgy and Bess while staying on Folly in the summer of 1934.

    Folly Beach Pier

    We had only one full day on Folly Island, but the weather complied with our plans to first visit the Morris Island Lighthouse just off the northeastern tip of the Island, the southern entrance to Charleston Harbor.  The sun was quite hot as we trekked the paved graffiti-filled path that leads to the dunes of the Lighthouse Inlet Heritage Preserve, but the first glimpse of the lighthouse inspired continuing, and was well rewarded by an uncanny seascape of trees long uprooted, bleached by the sun, and deposited at the island’s end by the ocean currents.  The lighthouse itself is, at 161 feet, the tallest in South Carolina.  Built in 1876, the tower and adjacent three-story house stood approximately 2700 feet from the water’s edge in 1880, but jetties constructed at the entrance to Charleston harbor caused a gradual erosion that displaced much of the sand on Morris Island.  By 1938, it stood at the water’s edge, and today rises alone from its own little island, 1600 feet offshore.

    Seascapes with Morris Island Lighthouse (1876)

    The seascape, reminiscent of a Waiting for Godot set, the final scene of Planet of the Apes, or some other apocalyptic vision, is what most fascinated me:  natural, evocative Atlantic sculpture.  We took lots of pictures of this tree graveyard, and then headed to Johns Island to visit Angel Oak, our second objective of the day and well worth the drive.

    Angel Oak, Johns Island, dating to ~1625

    Considered the largest live oak east of the Mississippi at an estimated 400 years old, Angel Oak stands 65 feet high with a circumference of 25.5 feet, shading an area of 17,000 square feet.  With 400,000 visitors a year, the tree gets lots of special treatment:  multiple supports for branches that graze the ground and, on the day we visited, workers aerating the soil around it to better allow water to nourish its roots.  One sign invited a gentle hug or kiss of the tree, the better to allow it to reach its possible lifespan of 900 years.  Given the prevalence of coastal hurricanes in our environmentally compromised Earth, that possibility seems unlikely.  But as one of the oldest living things in North America, predating European settlement and the founding of Charleston, this Quercus virginiana does inspire reverence—and a kiss.  And while its redoubtable age suggests the immortality of an angel, the tree is named not for those celestial denizens, but for the Angel family.  The tree stands on land originally granted to colonist Abraham Waight in 1717, whose daughter Martha married Justus Angel in 1810.  Their descendants owned the land and the Angel Oak until the mid-1900’s; the City of Charleston purchased it in 1991.

    We returned to Folly Beach just as the weather broke into a downpour, and spent a cozy hour or so having a late lunch in Coconut Joe’s.  The rain stopped conveniently as we finished our meal, allowing me a brief dip in the seaside pool, and an even briefer one in the turbulent Atlantic before we returned to Woody’s to retrieve Daniel’s sunglasses (left there the night before and happily returned to the bar by some good Samaritan), get a couple souvenir t-shirts, and enjoy some seafood and live music on the upper deck at Loggerhead’s.

    The pool At Charleston Oceanview Villas
    Ubiquitous Folly surfers, undeterred by any weather
    Swordfish and fried oysters at Loggerhead’s with Daniel and Richard

    The day concluded with a stroll to the end of Folly Pier as the sun set.

    Folly Beach Pier and sunset

    The next morning, the boys dropped me at the Vacasa office and headed back to Safety Harbor as I made my way to the Charleston airport with Uber driver Gosh, so enthusiastic about being a citizen of this country.  Mark Twain famously said “Travel is fatal to prejudice, bigotry, and narrow-mindedness.”  Remembering the number of signs I saw posted in Charleston area widows prohibiting concealed weapons, I wonder if travel is the cure we all need to see our situation more clearly.   That speculation and Gosh’s newly naturalized adoration of his adopted country have me still mulling over all I learned during our brief visit south.  But I’m enjoying a return to the azaleas still blazing further north, and the Eastern phoebe nest I found unexpectedly sitting in the middle of my driveway yesterday: like the Angel Oak, it’s a marvel of natural creation.  Nature always wins. I take comfort in that.

  • Ft. Sumter

    7 May 2025

    Approaching Ft. Sumter at the entrance to Charleston Harbor:
    where America’s Civil War began

    On Wednesday morning we took advantage of the Hampton Inn parking policy that allowed us to leave our car in the hotel garage until we left the Holy City for Folly Beach later in the day.  After breakfast on the patio, we walked the short distance from Meeting Street down Calhoun to the Ft. Sumter Visitor Center in Liberty Square, passing along the way the “Borough Houses.”  Built in 1852 (a century before my birth) and occupied by Irish immigrants, 35 Calhoun was purchased in 1939 by Willis Johnson, Sr., whose sons Frank and Henry built 35½ Calhoun by hand to complete their carpentry apprenticeships.  The two homes are still owned by the Johnson family, and remain the last vestige of “The Borough,” the African-American neighborhood built in 1940 for over 160 families, finally demolished in 1993 after the discovery of toxic waste deposits in the soil.  As a descendant of Irish immigrants, I asked my brother-in-law to record my tangential connection with this snippet of Black Charleston history.

    Murphy at the Borough Houses

    The exhibits at the handsome Ft. Sumter Visitor Center, including the replica gigantic garrison flag with its 33 stars once flown over the Fort, are very informative and, for me, revealing of how much our nation’s current divide reiterates tensions present from its founding.

    Liberty Square and the NPS Visitor Center, Charleston

    The closely related issues of slavery and state sovereignty were so volatile at the time of the Constitutional Convention in 1787 that any direct reference to slavery in the new document might cause a fatal rupture in the negotiations between regions and prevent a federal union.  So, Enlightenment ideals about the abolition of slavery were conveniently omitted.  To quote from one display, “The nation quickly learned that the Bill of Rights and the system of checks and balances between the branches of government did not guarantee individual liberties if one political party gained control of all three branches of government.  The 1798-1799 Virginia and Kentucky Resolutions written by James Madison and Thomas Jefferson were manifestos of a state’s right to judge the constitutionality of federal actions.  The resolutions defined the Union as a compact among the states, giving limited powers to the central government.  Arguments of a broken contract, or a failed ‘compact’ that no longer protected a state’s interests, were the basis for secession movements.”  The displays further emphasized how tariffs, intended to boost domestic industry, were seen as detrimental to Southern industry, highly dependent on agriculture and international trade, and led to the Nullification Crisis of 1832-33, when South Carolina argued it could nullify federal laws it deemed unconstitutional, including tariffs.  As Trump’s Executive Order nullifying birthright citizenship makes its way through the courts and the Supreme Court wrestles with injunctions, I’m again reminded of Harry Truman’s words:  “The only thing new in the world is the history you don’t know.”

    Carolina Gold rice, imported from West Africa and cultivated by the enslaved: primary source of Southern wealth
    A cargo ship approaches the 2005 Ravenel Bridge, 2.5 elegant miles spanning the Cooper River
    A cool place to await the Ft. Sumter ferry at the Visitor Center, complete with hilarious video about what NOT to do at the Fort
    (or, How to Achieve a Darwin Award)

    Ft. Sumter’s construction had begun with enslaved labor in 1829, an attempt to fortify Charleston Harbor after the War of 1812 with a defensive structure named after South Carolina Revolutionary War hero Thomas Sumter, a fort designed to protect the Union.  But South Carlina seceded from the Union on 20 December 1860 following Abraham Lincoln’s election as president, an act of secession soon followed by other states that led to the formation of the Confederate States of America.  At the time Union-held but strategically important to the Confederacy, South Carolina demanded the fort be surrendered.  Union commander Major Robert Anderson refused.  Lincoln then decided to resupply Ft. Sumter, an act the Confederacy viewed as a further challenge to their sovereignty.  General Beauregard of the Confederacy then sent an ultimatum to Major Anderson, demanding the Fort’s surrender.  When Anderson again refused, the first shots on the Fort were fired at 4.30 am on 12 April 1861, marking the beginning of the Civil War.

    Ranger Summer of the National Park Service pointed out that Ft. Sumter today is essentially a “stabilized ruin” of its former self:  walls that once rose 55 feet above sea level today offer a barrier of only 9-25 feet.

    Inside Sumter: the black Acrymax coating replicates the original pitch protecting the concrete structure.
    Ranger Summer, excellent National Park Service guide

    From Ranger Summer, we also learned that states added to the Union only get their star on the U.S. flag on the following Fourth of July, so Kansas, the 34th state to join the Union on 29 January 1861 was not yet represented on the garrison flag that flew over Ft. Sumter when it first received Confederate fire on 12 April 1861.  It was also Ranger Summer who pointed out the finger prints of what was likely one of the enslaved children whose comparatively “light work” was making the Fort’s bricks, nearly invisible but enduring evidence of why our country’s most costly war was fought.

    Fingerprints in the brick (second course down from the top)
    likely made by an enslaved child
    Richard and Daniel on board the returning ferry

    Ranger Summer’s characterization of Ft. Sumter as a “stabilized ruin” left me pondering the balance of stability and ruin typifying the current state of our Union.  But a tip from Bill at the Visitor Center gift shop sent us to a happily distracting treat at nearby bakery/café Saffron:  iced coffee and a slice of lemon torte sufficient to fuel navigation off the Charleston peninsula and onto our upmarket Airbnb on Folly Beach.

    Excellent pastry at Charleston’s Saffron Bakery
    Our elegant Airbnb at Charleston Oceanview Villas
    Excellent wood-fired pizza at Woody’s of Folly Beach

    A stroll on the beach and some wood-fired pizza at Woody’s on Center Street concluded our day to the lulling sound of the Atlantic waves.

    First night at Folly Beach in view of the public Pier

  • Magnolia Plantation

    6 May 2025

    Magnolia House Plantation, 1873

    On our second full day in Charleston, we set out for Magnolia Plantation and Gardens, a 30-minute drive northwest from the Charleston Visitors Center to the 390 acres of the original 1,872 along the Ashley River.  One of the oldest in the South, the plantation dates to 1679, when Thomas and Ann Drayton built the first small house and formal garden on the site.  Some of the enslaved people forced to work in the house and construct the extensive earthworks of dams and dikes in the fields along the Ashley River to irrigate the land for rice cultivation were brought by the Draytons from Barbados in the 1670’s.  Enslaved laborers also built the stately Drayton Hall (1738) on an adjoining property.  Both the original Magnolia house and the second were destroyed by fire, the latter set by Union soldiers who spared nearby Drayton Hall only because smallpox quarantine flags flew there.  The third plantation house (1873) still stands, and became known for its Romantic gardens after the Rev. John Grimké Drayton inherited the house from his elder brother in the 1840’s.

    Magnolia House garden façade
    The deepest porch ever at Magnolia House
    Surrounding Doric columns at Magnolia House
    This exhibit honors Eliza Lucas Pinckney (1722-1793), who transformed agriculture in colonial South Carolina by developing indigo as one of its major cash crops. Managing three plantations (though not Magnolia) beginning at age 16, she was responsible for 1/3 of the value of the colony’s exports.
    A young miss admires Magnolia’s delphiniums

    Designed, legend has it, to placate Drayton’s bride reluctant to leave her home in Philadelphia, the gardens currently grace 25 acres of the property, in addition to the 16 acres devoted to the wide allée of live oaks approaching the house and 150 acres for a marsh and water fowl conservancy.

    Ravenswood Lake and rookery
    Trail at the Audubon Swamp Garden

    The Swamp Garden is named for James Audubon, who like Civil War photographer Matthew Brady, once visited Magnolia.  Twentieth-century visitors included George Gershwin (who composed Porgy & Bess while staying in nearby Folly Beach), Henry Ford, and Eleanor Roosevelt; our guide was tickled to imagine Mrs. Roosevelt as a guest in a house that had no indoor plumbing.

    The most impressive aspect of Magnolia today is, however, the “Slavery to Freedom Cabin Tour,” conducted by a passionate Irishman named John. Standing before a backdrop of the five cabins on site, four built before emancipation and the last around 1900, and clearly drawing on his own people’s inheritance of oppression, John evoked not only the visceral horrors of the Middle Passage, but the back-breaking, life-threatening work of planting and tending the rice fields of the master, as well as the brutal punishments meted out to enforce compliance with the overseers’ commands.

    Oldest of the on-site slave cabins

    John spoke in the first person as one of the enslaved, then shifted to second person to further engage his rapt audience.  He demonstrated the heel-drop-toe technique of planting rice, still used today in Uganda, as he learned from a native visitor.

    Inside a slave cabin papered for insulation with reproductions of contemporary newspapers

    John told, too, of the Leach family, specifically Johnnie Leach, who lived with his family in one of the on-site slave cabins from the 1940’s until 1969.  Magnolia’s master gardener, “Mr. Johnnie” later lived in a modern dwelling at Magnolia until his death at age 93 in 2016.  His grandson Jackson Leach continues to work the gardens at Magnolia. 

    That John told the true history of Magnolia so vividly and memorably proved the most enduring takeaway from our trip.

    African American Cemetary at Magnolia Plantation
    One of the many eponymous magnolias in bloom

    It took a dip in the inviting Hampton Inn pool to accomplish the transition to that evening’s entertainment:  The Charleston RiverDogs vs. the Carolina Fireflies at “the Joe,” the Joseph P. Riley, Jr. ballpark further downstream on the Ashley River.

    Hampton Inn pool across from the Visitors Center on John Street

    The RiverDogs, a Single-A affiliate of the Tampa Bay Rays, have Bill Murray as one of the principal owners, and every first and third Tuesday night is Dog Day, when all canines are invited to attend, granting even more fun to America’s pastime.

    Richard and my very tall nephew Daniel at “the Joe”
    (Bill) Murray’s Mezzanine at the Joe

    The night was fine, the RiverDogs won, we had catfish and local Overly Friendly beer for dinner, and retired back to our Hilton happy.

    8th inning collapse after the 7th inning stretch at the Joe

  • Low Country Visit/Charleston

    4-5 May 2025

    Charleston view: gorgeous side gardens viewed through the fence wrought by Peter Simmons, enslaved blacksmith who taught his more famous successor, Philip Simmons, his masterful art

    Gosh, the Uber driver who returned me to the Charleston Airport last Friday, born in Dubai to Pakistani parents, is a well-educated former business analyst and a naturalized citizen who believes that America is the land of opportunity.  Despite losing his desk job and subsequently maintaining a brutal driving schedule five days a week to meet his self-imposed daily income goals, Gosh believes in his adopted country, and in making the best of whatever setbacks the universe hands him:  he’s determined to establish a nationwide distribution business and one day give a TED talk on the success he’s made for himself and his family in the U.S.  He showed me pictures of his two dogs, precursors to the children he hopes soon to have with his wife, an IT specialist who likes Shakespeare.  At his request as we neared the airport, I shared my brief story of work, love, loss, and my own relationship with the universe, and gave him my card touting my Will to Live book, which he promised to share with his wife.  We agreed on the old-fashioned efficacy of business cards, wished each other well, and parted.

    My flights back home were eventful only in recalling the many times I’ve left loved ones behind, prompting some tears; crying on planes, I have heard, is not uncommon.  Each painful parting recalls others past as one slips the surly bonds of earth.  I had Magda Szabό’s The Door for company, a novel about the distance that separates even those who love ferociously, contributing, as did Gosh, to the philosophical speculation that comes unbidden in the liminal space of an airplane cabin at 30,000 feet.  I returned to Madbury in the dark in the rain, grateful to be home after so rich and evocative a visit to Charleston, South Carolina and barrier island Folly Beach with my brother-in-law and nephew, our third reunion in the almost 15 months since my sister’s passing.  At home, the daffodils are blown, the lilac and azaleas in bud.  My takeaway from our low country encounter:  an accurate retelling of history is alive and well among the guides who led us around Charleston, the Magnolia Plantation, and Ft. Sumter.  Charleston’s gracious beauty and charm was never allowed to obscure the fact of its dependence on enslaved people.  No “war of Northern aggression” whitewashing of facts, no arguing that the Civil War was about states rights.  The war between the states was about slavery, the country’s original sin for which we continue to pay a terrible price.  Hearing that truth honestly told, together with a break from the 24/7 reporting of the Felon-in-Chief’s latest atrocities and a much-anticipated family reunion, was a tonic comfort and joy.

    On arrival at the Hampton Inn last Sunday afternoon, the excellence of the hotel’s location at the intersection of Meeting and John Streets was immediately apparent:  once a burlap warehouse, this Hilton property is directly across from the Charleston Visitor Center (formerly a train station) on John Street and the Manigault House on Meeting.

    Manigault House’s public façade, Gabriel Manigault, architect (1803)

    Built in 1803 by enslaved laborers using primarily local materials, Joseph Manigault’s house is a remarkable example of the severe Federal architecture that inspired David’s and my Gnawwood. From its imposing symmetry, blind windows, and Adamesque detail to its high ceilings, light-filled rooms, two-story piazzas, and curving central staircase, the Manigault House is a beauty spared from demolition in the 1920’s and, acquired by the Charleston Museum in 1933, signified the beginning of the preservation movement in Charleston.

    Manigault’s lyrical staircase: every 4th baluster made of iron for stability
    Dining room with unique fork urn
    Detail in the style of neoclassical architect Robert Adam, 1728-1792

    A National Historic Landmark since 1973, Manigault House’s graceful west façade is visible from the Hampton Inn pool, a boon for this tourist on a warm day. Maintaining its original iteration, however, was far more demanding; the House lacked both running water and indoor toilets. Our excellent guide let us know it took 27 enslaved servants to keep the Manigault family in comfort.  A descendant of French Huguenots who settled in Charleston around 1685 and later amassed great wealth as merchants and rice planters during the 18th century, Joseph Manigault inherited several plantations from his forebears, which produced rice and other crops through the extensive use of enslaved labor.  The canopy bed in the master bedroom testifies to the importance of that prized Carolina Gold rice, a variety of African rice that by 1750 made Charleston the hub of Atlantic trade (in goods and slaves) for the southern colonies, and the largest, wealthiest city south of Philadelphia.

    Carolina Gold Rice celebrated on a bed post
    Manigault House garden façade
    . . . and Gate House juxtaposed with 1950’s architecture

    We had begun our acquaintance with Charleston on Sunday afternoon at the Visitor Center, booking a walking tour for the next morning, surveying the neighborhood, and enjoying a low country dinner at Virginia’s on King (my mother Virginia would have enjoyed the crab cakes as much as I did).

    Sweetgrass baskets at the Visitors Center
    St. Matthew’s Lutheran Church
    Citadel Square Baptist Church on Marion Square

    Monday morning, we walked the mile down Meeting Street to the spacious historic Mills House Hotel, designed by architect John E. Earle and opened in 1852, to meet our Bulldog tour guide, Fran Bennett, witty and encyclopedically knowledgeable Charlestonian whose family dates back to the 1680’s. She led our small group on a most informative and entertaining two-hour tour, from Washington Square south of Broad to the High Battery on the Cooper River, winding through the charming streets of Charleston’s southeast peninsula and finally back to the Mills House.

    Tour guide Fran Bennett (photo by Richard Lupi)

    Ms. Bennett, clad in a batik dress of her daughter’s design, illuminated all manner of Charlestoniana with fun facts:  Spanish moss is an epiphyte, neither Spanish nor moss; artifacts preserved by rat urine in their nests help date historic houses; “Charleston green” paint is cheap and abundant black paint slightly tinted with the addition of yellow paint; and the difference between a graveyard (burial ground next to a church) and a cemetery (not associated with a church).  At the Four Corners of Law, representatives of ecclesiastical (St. Michael’s Anglican Church), federal (the U.S. Post Office and Courthouse), county (Charleston County Courthouse), and city (City Hall) law meet impressively at the intersection of Meeting and Broad Streets.

    The Post Office and Courthouse (1896, John Henry Deveraux, architect) seen from the columns at St. Michael’s Anglican Church, the oldest surviving church in Charleston, built 1751-1761

    Charleston is known as the Holy City because of its plethora of churches, but the feature most impressing me remains the single houses with their “piazzas,” covered sides porches that extend living space and offer cooling breezes, often overlooking pocket gardens shaded by live oaks.

    Piazzas on the Manigault House . . . and all around town
    Charleston window boxes sport “thrillers, fillers, and spillers”
    A “hyphen” joins the main building (with its brick structure revealed under the stucco) to its dependency
    A shutter of Charleston green

    Post tour, we caught the free DASH (Downtown Area Shuttle) bus back to the Hampton Inn, had lunch at the Dueling Piano, and after touring the Manigault House, had a fine dinner of moules and halibut at the Rue de Jean next door.  A good, full day.

    Chandelier at the Manigault House

  • April 2025

    3 May 2025

    1836 Monument at the North Bridge battlefield, Concord MA (photo by NPS)

    April may not be the cruelest month, but this one certainly has been crowded with incident.  My neighbor Leo turned 7 on the 5th, David Letterman 78 on the 12th; my dad George would have been 103 on the 22nd, also my parents’ 78th anniversary.  And some would reckon the U.S. turned 250 on 19 April 2025:

    By the rude bridge that arched the flood,

                    Their flag to April’s breeze unfurled,

    Here once the embattled farmers stood

                   And fired the shot heard round the world. 

    (“Concord Hymn,” Ralph Waldo Emerson)

    As the Felon-in-Chief attempts to censor art he considers unpatriotic and obliterate any history he personally deems unworthy of celebrating our 250th anniversary, George Clooney’s gotten a Best Performance Tony nomination for his role in the Broadway production of his earlier film, Good Night and Good Luck, celebrating the victory of Edward R. Murrow over Joseph McCarthy during the Red Scare of the early 1950’s.

    Clooney as Murrow, now on Broadway

    As Trump seeks to muzzle NPR and PBS and fire (notably lacking any authority to do so) members of the Corporation for Public Broadcasting, I’m tallying the ways in which the present rhymes with history:  a lying would-be tyrant once again tries to extort institutions dedicated to truth, justice, and the American way, his offenses uncannily echoing those of George III, against whose troops those embattled farmers fired the shot heard round the world.

    Ah, well.  Having now flipped the calendar to May—my earliest daffodils are fading and the first hummingbird has arrived to sip at the feeder—I’m marveling at all this past month contained, a balancing act likely more heavy on diversion and self-care than the constant protest and resistance called for by even the likes of David Brooks.  Peter Sagal, comic host of NPR’s news quiz Wait Wait Don’t Tell Me seized his bully pulpit at Portsmouth’s Music Hall on 18 April to spend a moving and educational hour speaking of our extraordinary Constitution before taking some questions about the show’s funny business, proving once again the seriousness underpinning all comedy.

    But there was much to spark joy in his talk and throughout the month: gatherings with precious friends and immersion in music and theatre reminding one of what the species at its best can do.

    Easter at Sis and Ted’s, Newton MA
    Easter Lilies at Wentworth Nursery, Dover NH

    Amici Music performed music completely new to me at the handsome Federal-style New Castle Congregational Church on 12 April:  Margaret Herlehy on oboe, Janet Polk on bassoon, and Daniel Weiser on piano introduced me to Lalliet, Clémence de Grandval, the delightful Paul Carr, and a Poulenc trio.

    Margaret Herlehy and Janet Polk of Amici Music

    Also new on 19 April was the latest Portland Stage production written by John Cariani—so new, in fact, that the playwright on-the-spot changed the play’s title from that printed on the program:  Not Quite Almost, or Almost Almost, Maine became The Darker the Night, the Brighter the Stars (good call, John).  This charming four-hander with four young actors playing multiple roles and some gorgeous light design that included shooting stars and the Northern Lights was a boon in these dark days of the Republic.  Then came world-class performances by the Handel and Haydn Society at St. John’s Episcopal Church in Portsmouth (Alexander Parris, 1807—the first brick church in New Hampshire):  Purcell, Vivaldi, Bach, and Handel.

    And finally, a return to Symphony Hall with friends David, Susan, and Vicky (and lots of appreciative Russians) to hear the uncannily gifted pianist Evgeny Kissin once again play an extraordinary concert:  a Bach Partita, Chopin Nocturnes and Scherzo, Shostakovich’s Piano Sonata No. 2 and selected Preludes and Fugues and—as if that was insufficient, three substantial encores. 

    Symphony Hall, 29 April 2025, awaiting Evgeny Kissin

    And there were readings and discussions of Twelfth Night at both the Portsmouth Public Library and Portsmouth’s Carey Cottage (designed in 1887 by Alexander Wadsworth Longfellow for Arthur Astor Carey) to celebrate Shakespeare’s 461st birthday on 23 April.

    Carey Cottage, Portsmouth NH
    Phyllis paints my daffs and forsythia en plein air

    And the Madbury Public Library Book Club had a lively discussion of Kaveh Akbar’s 2024 novel Martyr!, a novel built of multiple perspectives, a “choreography of etiquette” juxtaposing Iranian-ness and Midwestern-ness, thanatos and art, humor and profundity.  A paean to art that finally acknowledges its limitations, Akbar’s first novel is a fascinating read that taught me a couple new terms:  the Overton Window, the range of subjects and arguments politically acceptable to the mainstream audience at a particular time, and “sonder,” the realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own.

    I guess it’s the sonder that I’ve been most thinking about of late as I continue the humiliation management required of the aging.  For example, I spent a panicky 15-or-so minutes yesterday looking for the discharge chute of my electric mower after using it, I feared, without the chute during the first mowing of the season (OMG!  Did I leave it at that place in Pembroke last fall when I had it serviced for winter storage?), only to finally realize I couldn’t find it because it was on the mower all along.  Happily, others of a certain age selflessly report similar absurdities:  putting on mis-matched socks, donning t-shirts inside out, or pulling off slacks at night, and then pulling them on next morning, only to discover the previous day’s underwear around one’s ankles.

    But age has its compensations, especially when sharing experience.  My husband David was very good at making even the most routine exchange memorable, and, trying to emulate his talent, a few weeks back I noticed my Market Basket checkout clerk’s name tag, Sylvia, and greeted her with “Who is Sylvia?  What is she?”  Little did I expect her to know the lyric from Two Gentlemen of Verona, even less for her to respond by singing the next few lines set by Schubert!  When I exclaimed a compliment, Sylvia replied that she was raised in England, had learned that song in school, and now at age 88 (88!) was herself amazed to find she remembered it still, having not thought of it for at least 75 years.

    That’s a glimmer that keeps on glimmering:  with thanks to Sylvia, Schubert, and Shakespeare, all united at the Lee Circle Market Basket.

    Onward, to pastures new.

    Resident Turkey Hen

  • Glimmers

    11 April 2025

    Fellow protestor at the Hands Off rally, Weeks Crossing, 5 April 2025

    In 2021 when he was running for Ohio’s Senate seat, J.D. Vance, alumnus of the Ohio State University (’09) and Yale Law School (’13), gave a speech he titled “The Universities are the Enemy,” in which he argued that universities are hostile institutions, and must be attacked “honestly and aggressively.”  He concluded his speech by quoting from Richard Nixon (!) in a secret Oval Office recording and not released to the public until 2008:  “The professors are the enemy” (On the Media, “Harvard and the Battle Over Higher Education,” 4 April 2025).

    When Nixon said that in the fall of 1972, I was a college junior studying at the Shakespeare Institute in Stratford-Upon-Avon, enjoying the first flush of my affinity with Shakespeare that would find me, twelve years later, a Shakespeare professor.  So, I have some thoughts about Vice President Vance and his opinion of professors.  First, I note the character of the man:  with all the confident fluency we saw deployed against Tim Waltz in the Vice Presidential debates last fall, Vance used the privileged education he received from his professors to promulgate attacking them, capping his argument by quoting the until now most flagrant criminal ever to sit behind the Resolute desk, Richard Milhouse Nixon.  How appropriate, then, is his sycophantic service to the Felon-in-Chief, the man he in 2016 called an “idiot” and compared to Hitler (Reuters, 6 Nov 2024).

    Universities and professors are (like so many others under the Trump administration) having a rather rough time of it just now, a cultural moment when Shakespeare’s Romeo and Juliet can be labeled a pornographic text that encourages young would-be readers to have pre-marital sex.  (I am obligated to note that there is no pre-marital sex in the play, but that fact remains irrelevant to those ignorant of what they eagerly censor.)  Attacks on universities, professors, and even Shakespeare abound, impervious to truth and reason. 

    Massachusetts Poetry Outloud finalists, l. to r.: Iris Zhao, Abigail Drumm, and
    Ailin Sha (photo by David Marshall)

    Perhaps that’s why hearing 17-year-old Abigail Drumm on GBH’s Under the Radar last Sunday (6 April) gave me a glimmer.  A “glimmer,” I’ve only recently learned, is in the context of mental health a small, positive moment or experience that sparks joy, peace, or a sense of safety:  the opposite of a “trigger.”  A glimmer is a micro-moment that can help calm the nervous system and promote a sense of well-being, even in challenging times.  Ms. Drumm, a senior at Agawan High School and Spoken Word winner of the 2025 Massachusetts Poetry Out Loud competition, made my heart soar with her talent and her specific defense of Shakespeare’s poetry:  those texts are NOT exclusionary and elitist, she said, but rather beneficial to those who take the time to understand them, a force that can, in fact, “break down barriers,” not erect them.  This young woman, so eloquent in her defense of poetry and the recitation that makes it accessible, will soon be on her way to Washington, D.C. for the national competition to be held at Washington University from 6-7 May.  I wish she were on her way to replace J.D. Vance, who seems to have perfected the signature move of the Trump administration:  accusing the opposition of offenses they themselves are guilty of:  creating divisive discord and punitive chaos.

    Which brings me to another glimmer I felt last Saturday, standing in a cold rain on the corner of Indian Brook Drive and Central Avenue in Dover, NH, the intersection named “Weeks Crossing” for the once-landmark restaurant that closed there in 1995.  The last time I stood at that crossroads was in January 2024, when I waved a “Write-in Biden” sign to inspire voters in the New Hampshire primary, and garnered more middle finger salutes than support.  I received a couple of the same last Saturday, but the insults were FAR outnumbered by thumbs-up gestures and supportive honking.  Glimmer! Are my fellow citizens finally waking up to the fact that their president is running the country like a company concerned only for the profits of its shareholders?  Trump’s recent backing off of absurd tariff policies may have temporarily offered the market some relief (and allowed insider trading profits to his cronies), but the economic truth remains:  prices that are quick to go up are slow to come down.

    Jennifer at the Weeks Crossing Hands Off protest, Dover NH, 5 April
    Fellow patriots at Weeks Crossing

    I’ve been writing emails to Federal and State Representatives, but doing so lacks the gratifying uplift of being in the company of about 300 other folks mad as hell and not going to take it anymore (cf. Howard Beale in 1976’s Network).  Taking physical action felt good:  definitely a glimmer-esque moment.  Here’s to more of that good, necessary trouble.

    There’s also comfort in good distraction.  Most recently that’s come from my delight in watching Harrison Ford and Helen Mirren face down one disaster after another in Paramount’s neo-Western 1923.

    This production’s cinematography and locations are gorgeous, and the cliff-hanging plot lines engaging if somewhat Over The Top.  Watching masters of the craft Ford and Mirren work out is delightful, though I have to fault screenwriter Taylor Sheridan for making Mirren speak the word “journaling,” one of too many laugh-out-loud anachronisms.  When Pete and Teonna consummate their relationship and so are missing from Teonna’s father’s campsite overnight, covering their absence by saying they fell asleep by the river, Runs His Horse’s response is: “I hate it when that happens.”  Really? I will admit that the “Out of Africa” episodes with man-eating leopards, lions, and hyenas both shocked and scared me (however enchanting I found the costumes), but now nearing the end of Season 2, I find the unmitigated series of incredible mishaps befalling the Duttons–and their even less likely survival–rivals “Fenimore Cooper’s Literary Offenses.”  I well recall that on first reading Twain’s satirical essay out loud in Mrs. Fletcher’s 8th grade English class, I was rendered helpless with laughter; Sheridan’s comparable offenses have elicited my barks of derision, but at least his graphic plot shocks no longer keep me up at night.

    Local delights also counter the prevailing angst, among them my young neighbor Leo first April Fooling me, and then returning to show me how his birthday present, a robotic hand, works.

    Leo offers me his cheesiest smile

    Then there are the spring beauties in bloom at Rollinsford’s Wentworth Greenhouses.

    Color a-plenty at the Wentworth Greenhouses

    And, finally, there were all the lessons I recently learned about New Hampshire’s fabled Powder Major, John De Merritt, who after the 1775 raid on Ft. William and Mary in New Castle, NH, seized British gun powder, stored it under the floorboards of his Madbury barn (having dug a trench for a fuse that would blow it all up should the British discover its whereabouts), and then drove it by ox cart to Bunker Hill, where it enabled the Rebels to hold their position against the Redcoats.

    Display at Powder Major’s Barn

    Last Wednesday night in Powder Major’s reconstructed barn, NH Historical Society program developer and educator Mary Adams gave an informative and entertaining “Rebels and Redcoats” presentation, an account of all the credit due the New Hampshire rebels who first began the Revolutionary War. The handsome venue, now a destination for weddings and events, is just down the road from me on Cherry Lane, the home of the De Merritt family for seven generations, and the Goss family, the current owners, for four.  Judging from Ms. Adams’s presentation, NH Yankees have been not only brave but stubborn, irascible, and parsimonious right from their colonial beginnings.  Live free or die.  We could use a glimmer of that spirit now.

    Lecture space . . .
    . . . and handsome function room in Powder Major’s new barn, Madbury NH

    So, what’s to become of rebels against the authority of a president who resembles mad King George III more and more each day?  Who can say?  This moment, too, will pass, but how and when, and with what left behind?

    What’s the best way to celebrate the upcoming 250th anniversary of our Republic? Defend its founding principles now so clearly under attack.

    Peaceful view from Powder Major’s new barn

  • “Spring” Experience

    31 March 2025

    “Spring” in Madbury NH

    This liminal season, late March in New Hampshire, challenges body and spirit as the weather toggles back and forth between spring promise and winter redux.  Waking this Saturday morning to sleet on the newly uncovered deck furniture left me out-of-sorts, uncertain of how to make best use of the day.   Friday the deck had offered both bright sun and the aroma of mulch fresh-laid by the landscapers who at last completed their work begun last October while I was at the dentist’s; I had my new garden stairs to admire and the daffodils and daylilies just broken ground beside them to happily anticipate.  But when the weekend chill arrived with no obvious responsibilities (no appointments to keep and no weeding to be accomplished in that sleet), I felt rather stymied in transition.  I hadn’t so much lost my way (as poor Thomas Cromwell admits he has to his daughter Jenneke in PBS’s Wolf Hall, not long before he loses his head) as found myself unable to assign priority to all that needs doing.

    Distractions abound these days.  The NH House Representatives’ reports of majority Republican proposals at last week’s Durham Democrats meeting (proposed 0 funding of the State Library, the State Arts Commission, and the R1 University of New Hampshire) provoke outrage that finds no relief in Democratic disarray at local, state, and national levels.  How to protest?  How to resist?

    400 Seats in the NH House of Representatives Chamber: 177 Democrats,
    221 Republicans, 1 Independent, and 1 vacancy
    The Kennedy Center: under new management

    Ever since I heard the Felon-in-Chief (aka Cheeto-in-Charge) proclaim himself head of the Kennedy Center, I’ve been throwing more support to the arts, and last Sunday returned to Boston Ballet for its “Winter Experience” program, spending a completely diverting and uplifting couple of hours in Boston’s Opera House.

    Little Miss fascinated by the orchestra pit

    Boston Ballet is the only American company trusted to present Leonid Yakobson’s Vestris, the solo originally created for Mikhail Baryshnikov in 1969, now wonderfully performed by the first Black male ever to dance the role, Daniel R. Durrett (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BawLRbStXJo).

    Daniel Durrett, Boston Ballet Soloist

    Such dedicated, sublime artistry DOES inspire (take THAT, anti-DEI policies!), but it doesn’t direct political action.  I write to my Representatives, but they aren’t the ones who need persuading.  How DO you persuade a nincompoop who argues we don’t need libraries because we have the Internet?

    Like Chaucer’s Clerk of Oxenforde, gladly wolde I lerne, and gladly teche, but these days much of my “learning” comes from NPR, also under attack by the likes of Marjorie Taylor Greene and her DOGE Committee investigation of NPR and PBS.  Did Greg Casar’s (D-Texas) witty rejoinders to stupid questions posed by the DOGE Committee have any impact?  Sitting in front of a giant poster reading “Fire Elon, Save Elmo,” Casar asked “Has Miss Piggy ever been caught trying to funnel billions of dollars in government contracts to herself and to her companies?  I’m told we’re here to talk about government efficiency, but Daniel Tiger has not blown $10 million of taxpayer money to play golf with his friends.  But Donald Trump has.”  Hilarious, yes.  But effective, given the Committee’s dearth of wit?  Probably not so much.

    TikToker Todd’s lyrics sum up my distress:

                We’re in the middle of a hostile government takeover

                I wanna talk about it but I’ll be late for work.

                And if you say, “Wait a minute.  Who we have to stop this?

                We had one but you didn’t want that lady in office.

                Now that we’re a part of a Nigerian prince scam

                Surprise surprise, it ends up being a white man.

                Oh!  I just wanna know what the hell do I do? 

                (Probably drink)   

    But!  This American Life’s “Museum of Now” broadcast #857 (28 March 2025) Exhibit Three  provided me some optimism about the checks and balances the judiciary can still provide. TAL’S reenactment of one dramatic court hearing on the Trump administration’s executive order 14183 and new policy banning transgender people from serving in the military shows what one clever Federal judge can accomplish with flawless reasoning, legal savoir faire, and a penchant for upholding the truth.  Hurrah for Her Honor Judge Ana C. Reyes, who refused to countenance an order with no factual basis.  Her intelligent, witty evisceration of the government’s lawyer Jason Lynch’s argument has renewed my faith in the judiciary.  Well worth a listen/read:  https://www.thisamericanlife.org/857/transcript

    This American Life‘s “Musuem of Now”

    I’ve also learned so much from the devastating Netflix series Adolescence that I think I’ll have to watch it again. Co-created and co-written by actor Stephen Graham, who plays the father of a 13-year-old accused of murdering a classmate, there’s not a false note or move in any of the four episodes:  all the more astonishing as each of the hour-long episodes was filmed in a single continuous, unbroken shot.  Shakespeare’s Touchstone, the licensed fool of As You Like It, says “The truest poetry is the most feigning,” and it’s the extraordinary measures taken to feign reality in this complex tale of family dynamics and the social pressures on today’s teens that make its truth so searing.  Owen Cooper was cast in the role of Jamie Miller at the age of 13— with no previous experience.  He and all the actors are a revelation. OMG, to be a teenager in 2025!

    Owen Cooper being filmed in Netflix’s extraordinary series Adolescence

    However! Yesterday at the handsome Oyster River Middle School I heard a moving performance of madrigals, part songs, Vivaldi’s La Primavera, vocal duets from Heinrich Schütz’s Symphoniae Sacrae II, and J. S. Bach’s longest motet, Jesu Meine Freude, by Amare Cantare under music direction by Catherine Beller-McKenna. Those singers finally broke through my unsteady balance here on the threshold of spring.

    Atrium at Durham’s Oyster River Middle School
    Amare Cantare, with director Catherine Beller-McKenna (bottom row left)

    I’ve begun slowly but steadily excavating the accretions of past lives in this house, weeding the collections just as I’ll finish weeding the flower beds once the sun returns.  And today I bought supplies to craft the sign I’ll carry at the 5 April nationwide protest of current administrative overreach.  My sign will read:  “BILLIONAIRE$ ARE THE ONLY MINORITY DESTROYING AMERICA.”  But thanks to Amare Cantare, I’ll be thinking of Johann Frank’s text set to Bach’s music in movement 5 of Jesu Meine Freude:

                Trotz dem alten Drachen,      Defy the old dragon,

                Trotz des Todes Rachen,        Defy the jaws of death,

                Trotz der Furcht darzu!           Defy the fear of it!

                Tobe, Welt, und springe,        Rage, world, and attack,

                ich steh heir und singe           I stand here and sing

                in gar sichrer Ruh.                   in secure peace.

    March may not be the cruelest month; April arrives. But Defy the Dragon?

    Yes, we can!

  • New Orleans Revisited

    5-9 March 2025

    Art Deco in City Park, NOLA, one of several WPA bridges

    My much-anticipated visit to dear friends in New Orleans got off to a rocky start a week ago when 15 minutes en route to the Manchester airport, I suddenly could not remember lifting my carry-on suitcase into the hatch of my GTI.  A look in the review mirror confirmed it wasn’t there, and so I pulled a “uey” right there on 125 to reverse direction, speed home, and recover the case I’d carried into the garage and then left there.  Because I’m habitually early (if I’m not early, I’m late), the extra half-hour’s drive still got me to the airport with time to spare, but this lapse cast some doubt on whether my double checklisted always-be-prepared self was still up to solo travel. Getting old, getting on.

    My connecting flight in Baltimore was delayed, of course, worrying me about a further imposition on my NOLA hosts Trish and Mike; my scheduled already late 9 pm arrival was now going to be more like a 10.30 disruption.  So, once in the rental car facility (at considerable remove from the new NOLA airport), the report from the Dollar associate that he had no car available for me despite my having reserved one weeks earlier further furrowed my brow.  But!  I have a seldon-used Uber app on my phone.  More importantly, I was in New Orleans, where my baffled expression prompted immediate assistance from a young garage attendant as I searched for where the Uber pickup spot would be.  This kind fellow walked me there, told me the address to give the driver, and with a smile, wished me a good night.

    This occasioned a memory.  Two days before I had defended my dissertation and left New Orleans back in the spring of 1984, I had gone downstairs to answer the postman’s bell, only to have him laugh as I opened my security-grilled door.  When I asked him what was so funny, he said, “You the only white lady I seen so far today come to the door without a gun in her hand.”  There had been a robbery/murder in my neighborhood the week before; apparently all my neighbors had taken up arms.  But now, 41 years later, this stranger’s empathetic courtesy made me feel both welcome and safe as a somewhat baffled older woman alone at a late hour in a parking garage. His kind gesture proved the rule, not the exception, over the course of the next few days, a welcome break from taciturn yankee decorum. Good to be back in the Crescent City.

    I’d not returned to New Orleans for 14 years, and so the next bright morning after breakfast, my hosts walked me along Bayou St. John to City Park and the New Orleans Museum of Art Sculpture Garden, now easily three times as large as the one I recalled.

    Mike and Trish on Bayou St. John

    Built along the Esplanade Ridge, the Faubourg St. John largely escaped Katrina’s flooding, and remains one of New Orleans’s most historically significant neighborhoods; the navigable end of Bayou St. John was long a Native American trade route and portage trail connecting Lake Pontchartrain with the Mississippi River, where some French traders and trappers settled with the Native Americans by the end of the 17th century.  In 1708, the community of Port Bayou Saint-Jean was established there, pre-dating the official founding of New Orleans in 1718, though it was not incorporated into the city boundaries until the early 19th century.  Built on the Bayou in 1799, Pitot House was home to James Pitot (1761-1831), the first American mayor of the incorporated city (1804-1805), and one of the few West Indies-style houses left in Louisiana.  New Orleans architecture is always a treat, and my friends’ neighborhood is full of gems.

    Pitot House, 1799

    Having left a 19o snow-packed New Hampshire days before arrival, I was charmed by both weather suitable for sunbathing and the greatly expanded Sydney and Walda Besthoff Sculpture Garden, where the first iris and the last tulips shared space with the art.

    Beauty on the Bayou
    The first iris
    The last tulips
    Plantation House also of the French-West Indies style, erected c. 1784
    on Bayou St. John

    Water is an integral part of the Sculpture Garden’s design, appropriate to its bayou proximity, and the water itself is wonderfully “sculpted.”

    Mississippi Meanders, by Elyn Zimmerman (2019), laminated tempered glass bridge depicting the River’s multiple paths over time
    High water, low path in City Park: a reminder that some parts of NOLA
    are 10 feet below sea level
    Mike uses Katharina Fritsch’s 2017 painted bronze Schädel (Skull) to point out all the bones he broke in a bad tumble last year, now so luckily, happily mended
    Time Unfolding, by Thomas J. Price (2023), a 9-foot woman on her phone
    Viñales (Mayombe Mississippi) by Teresita Fernández (2019)
    . . . made of thousands of hand-crafted porcelain tesserae

    After our stroll and a sandwich, Trish turned her errand of picking up a purse mended (rather dearly, as it turns out) by a local cobbler into a driving tour through Mid-City (I recall when a missing “M” delightfully designated that section of town “Id-City), the Central Business District, and the Quarter, evoking all manner of NOLA memories along the way (like the time I brought David to Gallier Hall to pay our respects to local jazz legend Danny Barker, so splendidly there laid out) and prompting an enjoyable conversation about nostalgia’s complexities.

    That night my hosts reunited me with my fellow Women Against Dissertation (WAD) friend Susan, Dean Emerita of the College of Liberal Arts at the University of New Orleans from which Trish has now also retired, and the hilarity inspired by Susan’s well-told tales of local grotesquerie (think Eudora Welty or Flannery O’Connor) made our grilled pompano and Pouilly-Fuissé at the Café Degas all the more enjoyable—even if her stories did later provoke Mike’s nightmare of a one-legged man stealing his shoes.  It’s transformative, laughing that hard among such dear, old friends.  I went to bed very happy.

    Next morning, after an excellent breakfast of croissants from Leo’s Bread across from the Church of I Am That I Am (Popeye affiliated?), I was ready for Friday’s next big adventure, however briefly perplexed by a perpetual conundrum: why, oh why does the University town of Durham, NH lack a bakery capable of croissants?

    Part one of the adventure was a drive through Chalmette, Arabi, Violet, and Alluvial City (Alluvial City!) on the west bank of Bayou La Loutre in St. Bernard Parish, cruising in Mike’s truck past all the raised fish camps to the Hopedale Marina for a guided tour of some favorite fishing spots and lunch on the water courtesy of the Fish Tales food truck.  (Chef Mike enjoyed tweaking Chef Patrick about the quality of cheese on the ham & cheese po’ boy.)

    Hopedale Marina
    . . . with “Buffs” and fishing gear for sale inside

    I admired the selection of neck gaiters (aka “Buffs” after the manufacturer) among the marina provisions, and then we boarded for our bayou tour around sites indistinguishable to this novice but well-known to Cpt. Mike (Corner Grocery, Lena Lagoon, Delacroix Island).

    Cpt. Mike at the helm
    Roseau cane and muskrat trap marker
    Lunch on deck

    The open Big Sky above the world’s largest contiguous stand of roseau cane (Phragmites australis) was a refreshing vista after the densely forested landscapes of New Hampshire, and speeding through the marsh, observing the ongoing dredging and fill projects designed to absorb ever-rising tides, was fascinating—especially when we counted 10 gators disturbed by our converting gas to noise. 

    The outing became even more of an adventure when we briefly ran aground, necessitating Mike’s assuming gondoliere status to pole us back into the channel because his trawling motor was in the shop:  muscle, savoir faire, and rising tide to the rescue.  The wonderful day finished at Café Minh with my very first Shrimp Pho and another night’s good rest abetted by all that fresh air.

    Shrimp Pho at Café Minh

    Saturday was my day to try out my new Le Pas app, NOLA’s RTA innovation allowing me the all-day streetcar rides I had in mind.  I boarded at the end of the Canal-City Park / Museum line on Carrolton, and after an initial fright about getting my pass to load, I struck up a conversation with a first-time NOLA visitor from NY (the Village) who asked my advice about what to see and do in the city, which led to my confessing I’d not lived in town since 1984 when I graduated from Tulane and began my career as a professor, from which I’d recently retired after 43 years.  He asked what changes in my students I’d noticed over that time; my response:  the average student was less prepared for college-level work, the attitude of students toward professors had in many cases shifted to a consumer/vendor relationship, and, of course, technology had changed everything.  He then revealed that he had worked in A.I. from its early development, and thought most people were currently unaware of what he called “the 4th industrial revolution” now fast approaching, where only a very few tech overlords (my word, not his) would be required in the workforce; everyone else would be made—is currently being made—redundant.  Our car had by then come to an unexpected stop on Canal just before Basin Street; the other New Yorker behind my companion explained that where we were, given ongoing construction, was now the end of the line.  So we three parted, wishing each other a good day, and in my case at least, musing about what the future will bring.

    I walked the several block to where I could catch the St. Charles line at Common Street, and crowded in with all the other tourists, many of whom got off at Washington, clearly headed for the Garden District.

    What’s in a name? What was once Tivoli Circle became Lee Circle, but since 2022 absent the stature of Robert E. Lee atop the column, it’s Harmony Circle, with post-Mardi Gras portalets still in place

    I continued on to Tulane, spontaneously deciding to see what I could of the University I’d left so many years before.  Gibson Hall was locked up on that Saturday, but I shot a picture of the window where I once stood, mid-Old English exam, sharpening my pencil and observing that my AMC Hornet parked outside on St. Charles was now flooded up to its door handle, perhaps signifying that both my graduate school career and my transportability were soon coming to an end.  I was wrong:  I passed that class with a B+ and Rene of the garage next door to my Pitt Street apartment got my car to run again.  Another hurdle cleared. One never knows, do one?

    Gibson Hall: LOTS of personal history here

    I strolled up to the Howard-Tilton Memorial Library where I’d spent so much of my last year in New Orleans, noting along the way lots of colorful Adirondack chairs scattered around the campus, and a bead tree sculpture, signs of frivolity absent during my grad school years.

    Howard-Tilton Memorial Library, Tulane campus

    Of course the library, though open, was quite different, too:  the big tables where I had once laid out my 3 x 5 note cards to organize my dissertation chapters have all been replaced by computer terminals and small desks.

    No more big tables for sorting index cards

    When I inquired about where my actual dissertation was now stored (I thought I might slip a $20 between the pages, a reward to anyone dogged enough to pursue it physically, not digitally), I learned that Special Collections had now moved from the 5th floor of the library across the street to the locked-on-this-Saturday building where the Law School used to be.  So, I went on to the greatly expanded University Center (where I once got food poisoning from a tuna sandwich that required my early exit from a 19th-century novel class) to eat the remainder of yesterday’s po’ boy and hunt for the University bookstore—which also turned out to be locked, and a Barnes & Noble.

    Ou sont les “campus bookstores” d’antan?

    This made me nostalgic for the campus janitorial staff, the women who used to gather on the UC’s mezzanine level where the tv was to watch their lunchtime soap operas and talk back to their favorites.  After a brief look at McAlister Auditorium, site of the commencement that my sister reported brought my dear old daddy to tears when Prof. Morillo hooded me, I made my way back through Newcomb Place to St. Charles, where I caught the car that rounded the Riverbend and finally dropped me at Carrolton and Claiborne, the end of the line.

    Who knew that Batman lived on Newcomb Place?

    A man with a bull horn stood on the neutral ground there testifying to all of us waiting for the conductor to finish her break and take us back downtown.  The message was familiar:  Jesus is coming, change is coming, everything will be different, it’s time to prepare.  There was one innovation in his testament, however:  “It’s all digital!”  He for sure got THAT right.

    I boarded and then got off again at St. Charles and Duffosat, my stop of yore, to see if my apartment still stood.  It did, though Rene’s garage next door was now a fitness center; that seemed an appropriate sign of the times.  I took a picture and, by now getting pretty tired, crossed back to Bordeaux to re-board.

    My one-time home: 4828 Pitt Street, one block off St. Charles

    There I waited quite a while, first with a young mom and kid who eventually just set off again on foot, and then with two others until a third would-be rider, a very skinny fellow with very few teeth, came hobbling up, assisted by a four-footed cane, and carrying a plastic bag, a handful of Mardi Gras beads, a couple of books, and some printed-out pages. This little man returned by greeting and, after offering me some beads, began a very well-informed conversation about Dolly Parton.  The pages, he said, were all about her, a woman he really admired, and he cited statistics about her age, how much money she gave away, how many people visited Dollywood each year:  a proper fan, he.  He told me, too, that there would be more parades the next day, Sunday.  I thought him deluded since Mardi Gras had passed, but later learned he was right that some trucks would roll on the morrow.

    When the streetcar finally arrived, the other two passengers boarded first; I deferred to my chatty companion, and waited behind him as he struggled to manage his cane, his burdens, and his beltless pants.  When he stepped up, he was greeting by the conductor, who handed him the pass which he’d apparently left behind on an earlier ride.  That additional item to manage proved too much, however; he dropped both his cane and his pants, which fell to his knees revealing a white diaper just in front of my face.  Nonplussed about how to help, and reluctant to offer a boost to that diapered bottom, I hesitated. But my embarrassment on his behalf was short lived; the conductor immediately left his seat, got down off the car, and helped the man up with his pants and onto the car, settling him before asking him how far he was going this time.  The man replied, “Just to the next stop.”  There he did indeed disembark, once again forgetting his pass but leaving the rest of us rather relieved, and me in awe of the respectful courtesy of the conductor.

    The further we rode, the more tourists got on, so I was happy to get off once we reached Canal and walk unimpeded back to Basin Street where my Museum-bound streetcar was parked.

    Riders on the streetcar: chef on the phone on the way to work
    Mom and kid in Crocs
    Cute doggy
    Dudes, one with a great “do”

    The ride back to Bayou St. John was enhanced by more colorful characters, some locals and some tourists, one of whom, an Indian gentleman, I had to reassure when the car stopped at Canal and Carrolton and the conductor got off to manually change the trolley pole to draw power from the overhead wire.  1893 technology, that.  Back on DeSoto, Trish and Mike took adorable Dora for a walk while I rested on their charming sweet olive-scented patio.

    My new friend Dora

    Dinner that night—at my request:  fried oysters with beurre noisette, chopped salad, and an abundance of crawfish.

    Saturday night dinner awaits
    How to get frying oil for oysters to the exactly right temperature:
    laser thermometer!

    What remained of my NOLA sojourn was a lovely Sunday family brunch of Trish’s perfectly textured chive biscuits, ham, eggs (at $12.27 / dozen!), pineapple, and berries; my small contribution was happily juicing the fragrant oranges with a very efficient motorized juicer. 

    Trish, pro baker and professor, makes biscuits
    Sunday brunch
    Family and friend at table
    Wonderful homes on the bayou

    After a final stroll on the bayou, Trish drove me back to the airport:  very new, very nice, and loaded with amenities unique to NOLA:  live jazz and local food purveyors, a great improvement over the ubiquitous McDonald’s and Cinnabons at airports elsewhere.  Turns out there was a Brocato’s gelateria just opposite my gate, so I indulged in a valedictory stracciatella.

    Gators to go at MSY

    The long flights home were unremarkable and (of course) late, but I had plenty to review and consider. Chief among the impressions: my realizing a distinct advantage of aging:  a near half-century of friendships that sustained then and continue to sustain now. 

    Tuesday was Town Meeting Day here in little Madbury, New Hampshire (population ~2000; in 2024, 16 deaths, 13 births, and 6 marriages). As the Moderator called for votes and we waved our blue paper voter ballots in the air, I could only appreciate the time I’d spent in such good company in such a wonderfully different place.

    Madbury Town Hall, 1862

    A lot of the snow had melted in the few days I was away.  Spring will be here soon.

    Daffodils emerging

  • Performance

    4 March 2025

    Winter in Portsmouth outside the Hearth Market

    Hard to process, the nauseating, preposterous attack on a genuine hero, Volodymyr Zelensky, perpetrated by the Felon-in-Chief and his Smarmy Vice Suckup last Friday in the Oval Office, where only days before the Unelected Muskrat’s spawn picked his nose and wiped the results on the Resolute desk, an apt summation of the current state of affairs in these Un-tied States.

    The day before I had finally seized an impulse to unpack the six heavy boxes of Murphy family photo albums my thoughtful brother-in-law had sent me last July, which ever since had sat undisturbed behind our big library table.  They contained 25 large and 5 small photo albums, all carefully labeled and dated, the life-long work of my mother Virginia, her documentation of what she so clearly saw as her sacred vocation:  raising her two daughters.  Virginia is in almost none of the photos; she was always taking the picture.  I managed to get all the albums out of their heavy cardboard packing boxes and stack them so the dates of the photos they contain show on each cover, break down those cartons, and get them out to the street for recycling pick up the next day before I lost my nerve after opening just one album from 1955, dissolving, and then deferring further investigation until some future date.

    The Murphy Family Albums, curated by my mom

    All my life, to the end of my mother’s life, now lies on the library table, testament to a world that no longer exists.  I’m glad my veteran dad George and my mom, whose little brother Calvin died on the USS New Mexico when it was attacked by two kamikaze planes in May 1945, are not around to witness the deconstruction of everything fine for which so many of their generation sacrificed.

    Why my garage door is sometimes frozen shut

    Winter lingers on here, and though the days lengthen, the warming alternates with polar blasts, so ice dams and glazed driveways are a hazard.  I’m weary of the daily footwear decisions:  which boots, which set of ice cleats to wear?  Will the Stabilicers do, or must I have the full monty punk spikes and chains?

    Point of Graves Burial Ground, Portsmouth NH
    Portsmouth, still a working port despite a lot of recent twee construction
    Portsmouth’s oldest house, the Jackson House (1664) on Christian Shore
    (south facade)
    North facade of the Jackson House, with roof built right down into the hillside for protection from the northern gales. Winter is hard in New England.

    When I’m not weepy over my mother’s devotion to her children, now with only me surviving, I’m trying to figure out how so many of my fellow citizens have been taken in by the imposters currently posing as servants of the people.  I’ve recently learned a new term:  “kayfabe. ” Possibly originating in U.S. carnival slang, kayfabe is the term used in professional wrestling to describe the illusion that the wrestling is authentic, a code word used by wrestlers and others in the industry to acknowledge that what the audience sees is a scripted performance.  Anyone deluded into believing kayfabe real is a “mark”:  the same term used by grifters running a con to describe a potential victim.  Why can my fellow Americans not see through the kayfabe underway in the executive branch, and recognize that they are the marks of despicable narcissistic opportunists and sociopaths, interested only in further lining their own already bulging pockets?  I note here that the Felon-in-Chief has just named former World Wrestling Entertainment CEO Linda McMahon as U.S. Secretary of Education.  Why can’t folks see through this palpable device?

    Perhaps my emotional vulnerability and grief at all I see slipping away made the performance of Swan Lake I saw Sunday at Boston’s magnificent Opera House all the more moving.

    House right detail (originally known as the B.F. Keith Memorial Theatre, designed by Thomas White Lamb and opened on 29 October 1928)

    The story is fairy-tale tragic:  the evil sorcerer, Von Rothbart, casts a spell on a young girl turning her into a swan, Odette, a spell that can only be broken when a young man pledges himself exclusively to Odette.  The handsome prince Siegfried, seeing this beautiful Swan Queen in her nighttime human form, does just that, but on the next night at his coming-of-age ball, the evil Von Rothbart presents to Siegfried his daughter, Odile, transformed to appear as Odette, though now dressed in black.  When the deceived Siegfried, believing this beauty to be his Odette, swears his devotion to Odile, his vow to Odette is broken, and Odette and all her transformed friends who inhabit the lake formed by the tears of her grief-stricken mother will be swans forever.  In the fourth and final act, the Swan Queen Odette tells the swans they are captives to Von Rothbart’s spell for eternity.  Siegfried appears and runs to her, and passionately describes how he, too, was deceived by the wicked Von Rothbart.  Bound together by the power of their love, Siegfried and Odette defy and destroy the villainous sorcerer, but even in death, Rothbart’s spell is so powerful that Odette and the swans remain doomed.  Odette returns to the lake, and the heartbroken prince follows her into the waves.

    That fourth and final act begins with a real coup de théâtre:  the curtain rises on the moonlit lake, its surface shrouded in a thick layer of mist, from which, cued by Tchaikovsky’s sumptuous score, the swans suddenly unfold their lovely, lithe selves to a very satisfyingly audible audience gasp.  And later, when Siegfried lifts Odette high above his head, the power of her forgiveness and their love destroys the evil Von Rothbart.  But still they perish.

    It’s performance, that ballet, and it’s powerful.  Just the thought of all those dancers, musicians, artists, designers, choreographers, and the brilliant composer devoting their lives to producing that collective experience for their audience moves me.  I was especially privileged to have a friend, Elizabeth Olds, playing the Queen Mother, and she brought me backstage to see some of how the magic is made.  The view of the house from the stage is extraordinary, and a thrill even for this civilian.

    View from center stage
    Moms talk with prima ballerina Viktorina Kapitonova following her performance as Odette/Odile, while their daughters are captivated by the view from the stage

    Elizabeth, once principal dancer for the Royal Winnipeg Ballet and now assistant to Boston Ballet’s Artistic Director Mikko Nissinen, told me she’s danced every female role in Swan Lake, from court attendant to cygnet to Odette/Odile, performing her 32 fouettés in the Black Swan pas de deux.  (Insider info:  from her on-stage throne, Elizabeth counted prima ballerina Viktorina Kapitonova doing 33 in our performance.  Mon Dieu!)

    How that mist shrouding Swan Lake is stored
    Elizabeth Olds shows off one of her gorgeous costumes as Queen Mother, all built in-house

    Tonight the Felon-in-Chief (FIC) will address a joint session of Congress, where he will no doubt brag about the destruction he has wrought during his first 43 days in office, making every effort to deceive his audience with his performance.  I’ll be thinking about the difference between Swan Lake and the FIC’s performance, the kayfabe designed to hoodwink and cheat his fellow citizens, we the marks, by playing to our worst instincts, and contrasting that with the artists performing for a purposeful assembly: we the people willing to suspend our disbelief long enough to be moved by the spectacle of the literally elevated Odette, soaring to the Tchaikovsky and lifted high by her devoted and forgiven Siegfried, the embodiment of love strong enough to slay the evil Von Rothbart. 

    Amor vincit Von Rothbart (Mikko Nissinen’s Swan Lake, photo by Rosalie O’Connor)

    Can love survive, even defeat the hate that spews from the current leaders who embrace enemies as allies and scorn allies as enemies?  Here’s to all the artists who pose the question.  Dear Readers, I hope we can answer yes.

    Swan tutus await the next performance